Sorry this is late I have been meaning to update but it's been a crazy summer!! I did start a post and the. I lost it all so that kind of made me mad I had to type it up again!!
So in mid June I quit one of my three jobs cause I was miserable there. Then I was looking for work and stressing my hubby out that I hadn't found a job. I usually can find a job really fast but I wasn't getting any callbacks!!! We thought for sure after the fourth I would have started a job well I didn't!! My birthday was the third and the fourth is my fav holiday so I do a birthday celebration for well who's kidding I celebrate all month lol!!!! I learned the reason I love celebrating my birthday so much is because that's the closest thing that I have to my birth mother I hope she celebrates it and hasn't forgotten about me or my birthday!!! Well the the 11th me and Ashley who I work with at the salon she invites me to come over and go swimming at her pool so I said ok and as we were tanning I get a ph call usually I don't answer indie notified numbers but since I was looking for a job I answered it!!!!! Hi Mary Ellen?! ""Yes??!! " "This is Dana from child and family services, we have a 5 yr old little boy who needs a home ASAP!!! I had to ask all my caseworkers who has a family that can take one kid?! Your name was sent back to me!! I don't have any information on him except that he's cute and toe headed and has a great smile!!! He is being removed from his house today and we need a home for him right now, I need to know if u can take him?! " "ummmm ok well let me call my husband?!" "Ok well call me back ASAP!!!!!!". So I called my hubby and talked to him for 15 min discussing the pros and cons when I get a phone call from dana asking me if I've talked to my hubby I told I am at the moment and she tells me ok well call me ASAP and just to let u know he has a great smile and is toe headed and the cutest kid!!!! In my head I'm thinking I don't care what the kid looks like I want to know how he behaves?!
So let me back up a bit when we talked to our caseworker we told her we did NOT want certain behaviors in in our home especially since this will be our first kid. We also did NOT NOT NOT want to be put on the list to be called at a moments notice!! So to get this call was not what we thought would happen?! So in my mind as I'm talking to my hubby and Dana I'm thinking this kid is supposed to be in our home if we are being asked so blindly!!
I forgot to mention I called michael at work and when I got a hold of him I told him to sit down!! Mind u we are definitely not expecting a ph call from dcfs!! so I hear him sit down and I'm all r u ready for this?! Remember I'm looking for a job!! So I tell him and it's a good thing he was sitting down cause that was a lot to take in. He thought I was gonna tell him I found a job!! But I wouldn't have told him to sit down unless I'd be making 100k a yr lol which would never happen!!!! So in a half hr of talking he kind of left it up to me!! That's a big decision to leave up to one spouse but I had to go with what I was feeling!!!
Then came panic and stress and emotions!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was still at the pool mind u so I had to leave and I thought I had to go pick him up and we had just let my xo worker at the salon borrow it for the wk!!! So I was panicky and called her I had some extra car seats so she headed over! Then I had to hurry and straighten up the house and vacuum! Then they came with the car seat and it ended up I didn't have to pick him up they were going to bring him so I didn't need the car seat and my mother in law had a booster we could borrow since he is 5 I didn't need the front facing car seat!! Hey I'm learning I didn't know which car seat went to what kind of kid?! I do know which one goes for a baby give me some credit!!!! So michael comes home and we had two Char Mona heather and baby Sophia all there and we are just taking and I'm meeting baby Sophia who is chars granddaughter and her mom heather for the first time ( Sophia was placed up for adoption to heather by chars daughter Sammy they have a very open adoption and it has been so nice to see that side of it since I'm adopted) so as I'm meeting them I'm an emotional wreck!!! I just start crying when I see char and heather who has been through all this emotion too gave me a hug and said its ok it'll be fun and a great experience!!!
Well they left and michael ad I talked about everything!!! Then about 4 hrs after I told them we would take him we got a ph call saying they are on their way to the house!!! That's when I freaked out!!! I was emotional before about some other things and stress of having everything but this time it was about What have I done!!!!!!! So we said a prayer and a half hr later they were saying they were here!!! Then u start panicking and freaking out what have we done?! Michael finally calms me down and in time for the phone call that said we are here!!!!
